Out of reach

So recently my two bestfriends went on holidays, Saoirse who left first went to Cuba a week ago and Shauna who went to Amsterdam the other day and I feel so lost without them!

When Saoirse left I was gutted ha, she only lives 5doors down from me and we spent almost all our time together so it was weird not having her just arrive at my house (she lets herself in so I don’t have to get up YAY FOR LAZINESS). I feel kinda lonely without her, but I had Shauna to talk to while she was gone.

Then Shauna decided to leave to go to Amsterdam, a trip I was invited to go on but money was an issue and therefore I am still in boring old Ireland. Shauna lives in Galway so she is a good few hours away from me but I call and text all the time and we visit each other very often. So when she left the other I realised I was completely  alone.

Now don’t get me wrong I have loads of friends, I talk to most of them online but I don’t see them often enough so that’s why I feel so weird without the 2 girls here!

Like when things happen, good or bad the girls are the first to know and the ones who either celebrate with me or comfort me.
This week when things happened they weren’t there to tell or contact and it was kinda a shock to the system, I have never had both of them outta reach at the same time and I hate it haha.

All I can say is I’m glad Shauna is home in the next day or so and glad Saoirse will be home on the 7th, but it feels like weeks away! haha

I love those girls ❤

How i now view make-up artistry and gaming.

I ALWAYS FIND IT FUNNY HOW PEOPLE CHANGE,BETWEEN THEIR STYLE, TASTE IN MUSIC , SOCIAL GROUPS AND EVEN HABITS IT’S JUST FUNNY TO ME.

YOU WOULD THINK WHEN PEOPLE ARE SO SET IN THEIR WAYS THAT WOULD BE IT, NOTHING WOULD CHANGE FOR THEM EVER, BUT THAT’S NOT TRUE. I MYSELF FIND THAT I AM AN EXAMPLE OF THIS, AND I HAVE ONLY NOTICED RECENTLY. AND I SHALL TELL YOU HOW.

I HAVE SAID IT MANY TIMES BEFORE GAMING HAS BEEN WITH ME SINCE CHILDHOOD AND IT WAS ONE OF MY GREATEST HOBBIES AND STILL IS, I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD WANT IT TO BE MORE. IN 2010 I DECIDED I WOULD GO TO COLLEGE AND STUDY MAKE-UP ARTISTRY , I WANTED TO BE A MAKE UP ARTIST , I WANTED TO EXPRESS MYSELF AND SHOW MY CREATIVITY OFF AND I DECIDED WHEN I WAS 14 THAT THIS WAS THE CAREER FOR ME.. UNTIL I WAS HALF WAY THROUGH MY COURSE AND I STARTED TO UNDERSTAND THE INDUSTRY.

SO MANY PEOPLE I KNEW WERE MAKE-UP ARTISTS AND ALL OF THEM FREELANCE NOT ONE OF THEM HAD A JOB AT A COUNTER OR MOVIE SET AND THAT WAS MY EXPECTATIONS FOR MY FUTURE, AS I FINISHED THE COURSE I REALISED WHEN I WASN’T MESSING WITH MAKE UP I WAS GAMING, AND A FEW MONTHS AFTER MY MAKE UP COURSE IT HIT ME, I DON’T WANT MAKE-UP ARTISTRY TO BE MY CAREER I WANT IT TO BE MY HOBBY, AND GAMING IS WHERE I WANT TO WORK.

I JUST FOUND IT FUNNY HOW I WAS SO DETERMINED TO BE A SUCCESSFUL MAKE-UP ARTIST AND IT WAS A DREAM UNTIL I WAS IN THE PROCESS OF MAKING A START IN THE INDUSTRY AND THEN I NO LONGER WISHED TO PURSUE IT AND TOTALLY CHANGE DIRECTION TO SOMETHING TOTALLY UNRELATED TO MAKE UP BUT WAS SO CLOSELY ATTACHED TO ME. AND ALTHOUGH THIS IS ONLY ONE POINT IN SHOWING HOW SOME PEOPLE CHANGE IT DOES MAKE A BIG IMPACT IN MY LIFE.

THIS IS ME.

Gaming: How it started for me

SO! AS MOST OF YOU KNOW I AM ADDICTED TO GAMES, IF YOU DIDN’T KNOW YOU DO NOW!

BASICALLY FOR MOST OF MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN PLAYING VIDEO GAMES, I GREW UP ON CONSOLES SUCH AS THE NINTENDO NES , NINTENDO 64, PLAY STATION 1 AND PLAY STATION 2.

ALTHOUGH THESE ARE NOT THE OLDEST CONSOLES IN THE 8 GENERATIONS OF GAMES I CAN NOT HELP WHAT MY PARENTS DECIDED TO RAISE ME ON. AFTER ALL I AM ONLY A 90’S BABY. ALTHOUGH I WILL ADMIT THE 3RD TO 5TH GENERATIONS STAND TO BE MY FAVOURITE TO THIS DAY, EVEN IF THE XBOX 360 IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE CONSOLES AND IT IS PART OF GENERATION 7.

I WILL ADMIT I AM NOT AS SERIOUS AS A GAMER AS I WOULD LIKE MYSELF TO BE. I DON’T KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT GAMES AND I DO NOT ACT LIKE I DO EITHER, BUT I PLAN ON STUDYING THE HISTORY OF GAMING AND THE INDUSTRY IN GREAT DETAIL AND HOPEFULLY ONE DAY WILL BE ABLE TO CALL MYSELF “AN EXPERT”.

BEFORE I GO INTO DETAIL ABOUT MYSELF AND GAMES AND WHERE IT STARTED I JUST WANTED TO BRING UP THIS TOPIC THAT IS STUCK IN MY HEAD.

AS A FEMALE GAMER I FIND I ATTRACT THE WRONG KIND OF ATTENTION IN ONLINE GAMES MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE. NOW I PERSONALLY HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH PEOPLE WHO TRASH TALK OVER XBOX LIVE AND CALL ME NAMES, IT HAS NO EFFECT ON ME WHAT SO EVER , WHAT I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IS GAMERS WHO THINK ONCE IT’S OKAY TO BEAT DOWN ON MY SKILLS BECAUSE I AM A GIRL BEFORE THEY HAVE EVEN STARTED A GAME WITH OR AGAINST ME (ALTHOUGH 70% OF THE TIME GUYS ARE SORRY FOR IT) I AM A DECENT GAMER, NOT THE BEST AND NO WHERE NEAR THE WORST. I PLAY WELL, I PLAY TACTICALLY/STRATEGICALLY  IN GAMES WHERE IT IS NEEDED AND MOST OF ALL I HAVE FUN WHILE PLAYING GAMES, WHICH IS THE MAIN THING!

ONE MORE THING ABOUT FEMALE GAMERS, I DISLIKE 90% OF THEM AND YES I DO KNOW I AM ONE BUT I MAINLY DISLIKE THEM BECAUSE I HAVE ONLY MET A FEW GIRL GAMERS WHO DON’T USE GAMING AS AN EXCUSE TO FLIRT WITH GUYS OR GET ATTENTION. ANY FEMALE GAMER IN MY FRIENDS LISTS ARE ONLY THERE BECAUSE THEY ARE RESPECTABLE PEOPLE AND DECENT GAMERS AND NOT WANNABES.

OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. I GOT SIDE TRACKED I APOLOGIES.

SO WHEN I WAS EXTREMELY YOUNG I CAN’T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT AGE I WAS I STARTED PLAYING VIDEO GAMES WITH MY DAD. DAD HAD THE NES AND PS1 AND HE THOUGHT ME HOW TO PLAY SUPER MARIO AND IT WAS ONE THE GREATEST PARTS OF MY CHILDHOOD.

BEFORE AND AFTER MY PARENTS SPLIT MY DAD USED TO RENT GAMES ALMOST EVERY WEEK FOR US TO PLAY TOGETHER.
AND AS I GOT OLDER AND MY BROTHER STARTED TO PLAY GAMES MY DAD STARTED BUYING GAMES, AND CONSOLES AND ACCESSORIES FOR US. I REMEMBER LOOKING FORWARD TO MY BIRTHDAY AND MY BROTHERS, AS MINE WAS FIRST MY DAD WOULD BUT SOMETHING BIG, LIKE A PS2 OR A GAMEBOY OR GAMEBOY COLOUR AND A GAME OR 2 , THEN A MONTH LATER FOR MY BROTHERS BIRTHDAY HE WOULD BUY US MORE GAMES AND CHARGER PACKS OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT WAS BIG FOR GAMES AT THE TIME.

THEY WERE THE FEW BIRTHDAY’S I LOVED, AS SOME YEAR’S I SEEMED TO BE SO ANTI-BIRTHDAYS I WOULD ALWAYS GET UPSET ( I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHY)

SO NOW YOU KNOW WHERE GAMING HAS STARTED FOR ME, AND ITS ALL THANKS TO MY PARENTS I FEEL I SHOULD END THIS PIECE AND CARRY ONE A SHORT SERIES OF BLOGS ON MYSELF AND GAMING.

THANKS FOR READING.
(Yes i posted this on my new Tumblr also I will most likely be sharing it on both from now on)
http://chit0chu.tumblr.com/

By sherisan Posted in Gaming